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About a year ago... Amber and I took a trip out to Rady Park and took a bunch of photos. EX) above and below



I miss those days.


Once it gets warmer I want to take a daily trip over there. I enjoy being outdoors.
I want to go up to Shenandoah and go hiking up there too!
I miss going up there monthly with my sister, brother, and mother.

Spring better be around the corner. :)

I'm at a loss of things to do:

I don't have dance or Grease rehearsal today.

I feel so empty without anything to do, but I guess it's nice :)

Maxx and I got Starbucks then sat in the sun of the parking lot and talked. It was nice. :)

Something good happened today :)

Yesterday I broke my big toe nail and it was all bleeding underneath, then I had to break in my new pointe shoes.
Let me tell you, I put my feet in those babies and it felt like I put my feet in cement blocks. They were so hard, damnn.
My feet were crying by the end, but soon enough they'll be nice and broken in.

Tomorrow the NOVA campus in Loudoun is performing Five Women the Same Dress. I wanted to go see it, but I don't have a ride... darnnn. But they are performing on Saturday and sometime the next weekend and in March. So I might have a chance to go see it sometime.

So Taylor has agreed to taking me to school in the morning. :) That makes me happy. I just need to get away from my family in the morning. They are all so cranky. My Mom always bitches at me about my driving, and my sister is always throwing a fit and making me tardy. :/ GRRR.


I should be doing Douglas homework... :/

silly.

I'm about 18-19 months away from having that perfect smile. :B

BLURB

I spend my time doing things like youtubing Paula Abdul and Madonna music videos, googling hours of operation, looking at how many calories I'm taking in, blogging, and drooling over Prince music videos.

For some odd reason I love music videos. :/ Beats me.

I love Paula Abdul's choreography though.

I'm slightly bizarre, but it doesn't bother me too much.


*Hopefully I can get this Douglas homework done by 9:30.
I'll keep my fingers crossed.



I have my first ortho appt. today.
My teeth will be getting braces in 2 more appts.

My elbow hurts. REALLY BAD.
I am now running on reserve battery power, GREAT!

GRABBING MY CHARGER!
DONE, DONE, DONE


Tomorrow is my very first dance rehearsal for Grease, MUCH EXCITE.
The dancing part is my forte for sure!



Personally, I think I start to look more and more like my mother everyday. But that's just a personal opinion...

I have to restart my computer now, BYE.

<3

Let's get lifted.

----------Find me a man like this, and I'll be satisfied for the rest of my life. 

My hair is currently air drying, it's looking voluptuous from my point of view. 

I have my first read through tomorrow. It's exciting, seeing as I haven;t been in a musical since like 5th grade. (and 5th grade "musicals" are shitz anyways.)

I picked up my film yesterday, and I was content with some of them, I need to get batteries for my flash.

GRR.

I need to grab my calendar and organize all the shit I have going on. :/

I've become a busy girl, and I'm happy about it. 

I've sorted out the stuff I want in life and the things I can live without. I finally feel like I'm going somewhere. 

I'm inspired.

I'm nervous about college though. I need better grades. I need to put a resume together for dance shit too. I'm going to forget a lot of stuff if I don't get that resume started now. Too bad my old resume is lost somewhere in the crashes of my old computer. :'(

I'll start on that today I guess. 

I also have homework. :p

What am I going to do with my life..... D: 

These are occupations that I've thought of throughout my life:

- Choreographer 

- Actress

- Dancer/ Ballerina 

- Back-up dancer

- Wedding photographer

- Photojournalist (that's what my mom has been trying to push me towards, bizarre)

- The typical, get rich and famous, doing nothing. :p

- Broadway performer (doesn't everyone?)

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help me.

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"It's not in the way you look, or the things that you say that you do."

I love that picture of Ajua <333

I feel sick right now :p

blehh.

Tomorrow is President's Day, which means no school! WAHHOOO. Then on Tuesday I have my first ortho. appt. Which should be interesting... And my first read through of Grease.

Which is yet another dance class missed...

Ms. Dillion better know that I can't skip anymore Tuesday's after this coming up Tuesday. Gr.

Feb. 14, Feb. 15, Feb. 16.

The ballet was fun, I enjoyed myself. 

I always get inspired out of things like that.

Last night was Valentine's Day and I went to see Coraline with Evan from work.

And tonight I'm supposed to be hanging out with Andy. 

I should go get ready now. :p

P.S.

I'm going to see Richmond Ballet preform Cinderella! :)

Tomorrow should be a good day :))))

Heart It Races.

So today I was expecting to see what role I made in our spring musical, Grease, but noooooooo. She decided to push it back one more day, JOY. Gahhhh, I'm so excited though. I hope she read my audition form throughly because I'm not able to come Tuesdays. I need to be with the company practicing for Sleeping Beauty, and the May 1st show. I'm doing a tap number with Janna. :) I love tap! Cynthia said when I'm here in the summer that I could teach a little kids tap class and get all my summer classes free! Wahhooo. That makes me happier. As I was saying today..... Gym classes was alright, I flipped when I went into that Lions Trailer to get my eyes tested and I couldn't see anything on the first circle! I had to back my head up and the man yelled at me and told me to press my face against the thing. Grrr. But then english came, and that class !always! makes me laugh. I didn't the story I was supposed to read the night before, and I ended up acing the test that she gave to us about it. DayuummmM! Math was alright, I hate math but right now it's easier for me since we've already done like half of this stuff. Maybe I'll get all A's and B's this term! :D As of right now I have an A in math, gym, and journalism, and a B in english. I would say I'm doing pretty well. :) Then came journalism and I typed up my entire english essay in there in 10 minutes. Probably one of the easiest things of my life! And I got most of my story for the paper done. I feel pretty accomplished today, all I have left is some Douglas homework :p and I need to study my vocabulary words. Hopefully I can finish of my roll of film and get it developed tonight! :D

GRAWR//

So I got my film developed yesterday and Christie pointed out to me that my film was all misaligned, but it wasn't too bad. But I put my disc in and POW everything is totally FUDDUP. My pictures are totes in half and some of the pictures on the disc the moron didn't give me prints of. I knew I was missing pictures and I found them, but I don't have them on print paper. >:l

Upsetting... && I'm sure my film is misaligned right now, and I don't know how to fix it without killing my film.

 So heres to another roll of shitty pictures!

My mind tends to wonder.

I think everyone has two side to them, the kind of person they want to be, and the kind of person they really are [my friend Billy proposed this idea to me]. To be quite honest I don't know anything about myself. I don't know who I think I am, but I'm not sure if I can trust anyone to tell me who I am. It's all relative I guess. I could probably just go in circles with that topic so I won't get into it.

Today at lunch I was discussing with my table what if the government has already; created a time machine, learned how to birth a dinosaur, knows how to read the minds of all of it's citizens? These are the things I like to think about in my free time. I mean seriously why would the government/ scientist release any of this information? It would just cause complete chaos. Whatever.

Lately the term "whore" has come up a lot. So many people have either called me one to my face, talked about me being one behind my back, or have heard it by rumor. It's not flattering, but whatever. I'll try harder to not be such a "whore, that will give it up to anyone." <-- actual quote. :/

So, I'm not sure how to feel right now about this situation that has been brought to my attention. Not sure if I should bring it up at all now that I think about it... :'(

I wish Billy would return my phone calls... I miss that kid. Doubt he could say the same about me. I knew it would come to this eventually. Good things never last. 

Tomorrow's Friday: Maxx comes home! :D We're going to hangout, not sure what we'll do but it'll be fun no doubt. It always is :) Then on Saturday is my audition for Alvin Ailey, later that night I was invited to go to the Stone's house, but I don't know if i'll go or not/?? Sunday I'm working 'till like 3, than hanging out with Mason. If he doesn't bail on me. 

I don't know what it is about that kid, we've liked each other on and off since I was in like 8th grade and he was 7th. It's a weird situation. I don't quite know how I feel about it now that he talks to EVERYONE. Whatever. We'll see how things play out.

"If you lie you don't deserve to have friends, if you like you don't deserve to have them." -CIWWAF

My feet hurt :P I have a gigantic blister on my poor little pinky toe. My teacher is making me take my new shoes back and get harder shanks. Grrr, so much work for these silly pair on shoes. I'm pretty sure my right shoe is dead :( and I have auditions Saturday which means i;m going to receive another denial email. 

"I cannot believe in a God who wants to be praised all the time." -FN

I just realized, having met tons of people in my life. I don't leave good impressions. I think I've completely trashed my reputation.