February 5, 2009

My mind tends to wonder.

I think everyone has two side to them, the kind of person they want to be, and the kind of person they really are [my friend Billy proposed this idea to me]. To be quite honest I don't know anything about myself. I don't know who I think I am, but I'm not sure if I can trust anyone to tell me who I am. It's all relative I guess. I could probably just go in circles with that topic so I won't get into it.

Today at lunch I was discussing with my table what if the government has already; created a time machine, learned how to birth a dinosaur, knows how to read the minds of all of it's citizens? These are the things I like to think about in my free time. I mean seriously why would the government/ scientist release any of this information? It would just cause complete chaos. Whatever.

Lately the term "whore" has come up a lot. So many people have either called me one to my face, talked about me being one behind my back, or have heard it by rumor. It's not flattering, but whatever. I'll try harder to not be such a "whore, that will give it up to anyone." <-- actual quote. :/

So, I'm not sure how to feel right now about this situation that has been brought to my attention. Not sure if I should bring it up at all now that I think about it... :'(

I wish Billy would return my phone calls... I miss that kid. Doubt he could say the same about me. I knew it would come to this eventually. Good things never last. 

Tomorrow's Friday: Maxx comes home! :D We're going to hangout, not sure what we'll do but it'll be fun no doubt. It always is :) Then on Saturday is my audition for Alvin Ailey, later that night I was invited to go to the Stone's house, but I don't know if i'll go or not/?? Sunday I'm working 'till like 3, than hanging out with Mason. If he doesn't bail on me. 

I don't know what it is about that kid, we've liked each other on and off since I was in like 8th grade and he was 7th. It's a weird situation. I don't quite know how I feel about it now that he talks to EVERYONE. Whatever. We'll see how things play out.

4 comments:

  1. Personally I think you should go to the Stone's house as a way of saying "Hey, we can hang out without it being awkward, yay us!"

    Oh and I want to talk to you before you get any more hurt by this whole deal.

    - Vinh

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  2. oups. forgot you don't know Vincent Valon.

    It's Zakk

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  3. Oh man. I was supposed to hang out with Mason today too. This is not good :/ I hope he's not playin' games, man! Haha, I'm just gonna leave it alone I think. I hope you guys can hang out and stuff! :) I liked your first two paragraphs a lot :) But the third one made me sad :( You're not a whore, mon ami. I know you're not. Whoever says that is a poopy negative tard, just remember that! Hahahahaha.

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  4. Haha there is no doubt, he is fo sho playin' games. I mean it's Mason, for real.

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